Reaching

I lie awake at night
Eyes open and thoughts incoherent

I turn off the lights
Pull the blanket close and sigh

I roll to the side
Wonder how and when and why

I reach out my hand
Imagine that someone takes hold

I wrap my fingers closed
Feel the warmth of a phantom embrace

I close my eyes tight
Pray that my empty hand is not in vain

I lie awake at night
Reaching for something that may never come