My Next Lifetime

I've spent a lifetime being angry at the world
Another lifetime regretting every decision I ever made

I have second-guessed every emotion, doubted every action
Wondered if anything was really real

I've spent a lifetime wanting to be someone else
Another lifetime trying to make it so

I have changed my every feature, twisted every truth
Wondered if this is how they wanted me to be

I refuse to waste another lifetime feeling this way
I refuse to give up on the possibility of what could be

I will use this next lifetime to make something of myself
I will use this next lifetime to actually live for me